time's a tickin'

so... as of today i might be mildly panicky w/ the baby stuff. i havent given things too much thought, just sort of letting things happen as they have, but i think that may have not been a good idea.

i am "24weeks/6months" as of this week and the next three months WILL fly by. im not so much worried that things wont get done but more about finding the time. i am traveling all of oct and most of nov for work & that leaves very little time (only weekends). then it'll be december (holiday season) and january will go fast (or it better!).... my due date is somewhere b/w jan 25 and feb 9th.

the frustrating thing is we really dont know what we should be planning/getting in order. i have my maternity leave/health insurance stuff figured out through work, but that is it. since we've been trying to figure out our living situation, that has affected things, im sure. i try not to worry but im disappointed and frustrated for heath w/ this whole buying a house struggle. it literally has been a 5month process and nothing has moved forward. we are trying not to worry, but obviously its not ideal and i just feel for him.... well, i feel for all of us!

i know we need to figure out day care stuff, make sure we have things for when the baby comes home (car seat, bedroom stuff, diapers/feeding stuff, etc), and things figured out w/ us and family. maybe this list doesnt seem too long, but like i said, time is more of the concern. when we will have the time to figure this stuff out! plus, it doesnt help that as the time passes, i get more and more tired.....

which im trying to not let that hold me down/slow me down, its inevitable! plus im just trying to stay healthy. w/ all the travel im doing and face to face interaction w/ SO many people... im trying to stay healthy. and all this H1N1 flu shit is scaring me. idk why its so bad for pregnant women to catch, but all i know is that i dont want it.

anyway, enough "bitching"....things will all work out. i love heath, he loves me and we are excited for baby b to come!...... all i know is my/our lives will not be the same in about three months...how crazy!!!

xoxo
jkh